Masih Ada Waktu by Radiance

This is my second video on youtube. hehehe. I'm joining competition in my campus.... Too many talented editor in UMP. I don't know whether can win or not. But at least I've try my best. :D But I realised that, in my campus, talent is the second matter they would consider to choose the winner. :/ If you're popular. Then you can win. I am no popular. so the probabilty to win any competition in UMP is very low. *sighed.

Whatever, God bless me. I know there's a lot of people out there who will still supporting me. :D

You're still the one.

It's been a while since the last time I post on my blog. I'm not too busy. I am just lazy.
Sometimes I wonder, why I'm always bullshitting to people around me, especially the one that I love?
sometimes the one that you love turn out to be the one who hurt you the most. Indeed. My darling love me so much but I always hurting him. :( .

 I don't know what exactly I am doing. I supposed to be happy because I have someone who loves me so much. But why.. why I keep on doing something stupid just because I got too carried away with my emotion? I was just a dumb little girl. I don't even understand what I exactly I did with my relationship.

The fact is, I love him so much. very much indeed. But I always hurt him. I don't know why. I don't want to lose him. I dont want to spend my life with other than him. I just want him. Eventhough i always treat him badly, the fact is, I love him so much. I hate it when I knew that people around him hurt him. I hate to know that a lot of people burden him. I just don't know what to do to help.I am not as perfect as the other girl he may know. But the fact is, I don't want him to fall in love with someone other than me. I always be the fierce and boyish in front of other's eyes. But the fact is, it's so easy for me to cry.. whenever bad things happen to us.

I only have one life. I sacrifice a lot just because I want to be with him. I change my faith because I want to follow him. :( I hope my parent can accept it one day. Mortal sin to disobey the parent will... but what more to say, I just want to be with him. To calm myself, I always remind myself that, It's not church who will save us. It's our faith. God bless me for my times in the world.

I am the luckiest girl in the world. I am his first love and also will be his last. I swear he's the one I'm gonna marry soon. :D Dear darling, I hope one day I can be better for you. I love you so much. :) Don't ever say you want to leave me anymore. ok?

Latest Make up

Gothic make up. Do u Like it?

lulu ffx make up.

Attempt 1

After The Rain.

My band. Hahahahaa. eventhough we've lost and the mic sabotage us,but we have a lot of fun.Indeed...

During The critic session. This is how I look  in other's camera...hahahhaahah

Everything have Reason

I still remember things that happened a year ago... when My ex roommates won't me to be with them anymore.
And that's why, I have to choose my own new roommates, and its happened to be the people who I knew for years, but never been so close. They are the very beautiful ladies, and I felt a little bit awkward because compare to them, I am the ugliest with lots of imperfections on my face.

As I live with them for 2 months, they started to ask me what product I used for my face. And then they recommended me to use one of the product from the local shop. I'm worrying about it and google it for more information.yes... I even ask my boyfriend whether I should try it or no, and then, he said, it's up to me. As my pimple getting worse on the cheek, I went to buy the product they ask me. I use it for about a month only, because I put it all over my face and finish it earlier. :3 Until one day, they commenting me that my skin is getting better. Is it? it's hard to trust anybody. When I went to class, one of the male friend says, 'HEY YA..YOUR PIMPLE IS GETTING LESS. WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO IT?' so before this, I assumed that they see me as an ugly pimplish girl.hahahahhaha... never mind. As long as it getting less....If I didn't stay with my my roommates, I will never knew about this product and my pimples may be will continuously growing. And thanks for Wanie, for selling a good 2 in 1 supplements for me also. :3

with this distance, usually, you still can see all my
pimples will be so obvious. But yesterday, everything
is just fine. :D

This one is the close up photo... less pimples already.
THANKS GOD!!!!!!

I'm just a human being. :)

Hello, today suddenly I got the confident to post something about my self and the problem that I've suffered for a long time... ACNE. I'm watching lots of channel in youtube and I realised that I am not the only unlucky girl who suffered with acne. Lots of people there.... :) But for real, this problem tormented me for a long time..indeed.

Okay, from this picture, I knew that the presence of the acne on our face is sometimes, the indicator of the healthy level of our body. :) Last time, I suffered sudden breakout on the mouth area, and it maybe related to the constipation problem. My colon is not healthy. :/ ( However, during my teenage age, I suffered acne and pimples all over my face.hahahaha)

I'm using lots of products and supplement to control my acne but.... most if it doesn't work. On 2010, when I was 20 years old, the acne problem getting SERIOUS ( don't know how to explain, about how serious it was). I think, the major cause of my acne on that time is due to MAKE-UP AND WRONG PRODUCT. duh....I went to class, wearing make up everyday. I thought, I can conceal my imperfections with those make up..but CRAPS. The acne just getting..worse. You don't believe me?

Me-2010

Holy shit!!!! this is me. Pimples and Acne are everywhere. My mother feel bad to see me like this. ME, OF COURSE. :D I get tired listening every negative comment from my neighbours and relative about my acne. hehehe. And that's why, with my parent's help, I do something to make my face better. I do research a lots from internet. My boyfriend was surprised that I seem to know everything about 'chemicals' in product and what so on.... But the best thing here was, he didn't leave me even though I look ugly with all of these acne on my face.

ME-2011

:D this photo was taken using my 14mp compact camera..last year. :D during my semester holiday. Actually, I didn't realize that my complexion getting better, but my mother told me so. And the other family members too.hihihi.. And that's why I'm taking this photo to see it... :D However, as I working for 2 months during the holiday.. the shitty acne return back. I don't know the main reasons why it suddenly appear again.... huhuhu. I'm just too depressed with my skin.

HAH.. TOLD YOU. my acne reappears on certain parts. On my chin, near my eyes, my cheeks... omg. I am so depressed with my skin that time. I didn't tell my parent about it. I just doing some research and experiment on how to banish it back. It come suddenly indeed... I don't have any idea bout it.. huhuhuhu. This was taken last year, on September. :C  hah by the way, that's my boyfriend... most people said, our face is almost the same. Is it? hahaha

current! Feb 2012

 And this is me recently. After going through with many experience about losing and getting back the acne..urggh.. Now I'm feeling better. I just have to banish the scars. :D A super long journey to deal with the acne. So sad. I used to hate myself for not born prettier... but Now I realised, I am pretty. It's just the acne which lower my confident level. And for my boyfriend, Thank you for staying with me... during the critical and happy time. I'm hoping that You'll be proud to have me as your girlfriend and...spouse to be. SOON. i LOVE YOU. :D

good night.
Diana Erika Phillip

Lovely on Weekend.

hello peeps.. :D It's been a while since the last time I update my blog.
Well guess what? Last week, my roommates were not staying here,they were going back for an event,
And I'm spending my time doing things I love in my room. MAKE-UP. :p
I've bought new item last week. The Phillips hairstyler. And I'm spending my time trying all the stuffs when nobody here. Sometimes It's ok to be pretty. ^^

I'm using the medium size curling tong. :D

Bohemian... :D

Sunday trip. ;D

Oh well, before using any of those, don't forget to apply
some heat protector onto your hair. I'm using lucido L and topical to protect my hair from the heat
 and Loreal hair spray to make it stay longer. :D

Happy Monthsarry dear.. :D

You are the best boyfriend ever... :D

Someday, Somehow all my dreams will come true. 

One day will be the day where I can be with you forever. 

I love you forever darling. :D

Happy 1 year and 5 months being together.

I promise I will never leave you forever. 

God bless us. 

Footprints

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene,he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of foot - prints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."